Ok, so here's how i sum up my week:

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday: COMPLETELY BORING

Thurday, Friday, Saturday: FINALLY SEEING THE OUTSIDE WORLD

So take it from the experienced, always do finish your homework by the end of the first half of the week if not you'll be in deep crud. Yes, so anyway, I went to Marina with Xiang and Co to watch a movie, Initially our choice was Big Momma's House 2, but we changed our minds last minute and watched the movie Yours, Mine and Ours. Being the person i am i doubted the show, thinking it was a second-rate copy-cat of Cheaper By The Dozen 2... how wrong i was. The show was cool, i mean there was plenty of eye-candy, and the storyline's pretty good, and the plus side is you get to see familiar faces like Drake Bell and the girl who plays his little sister in Drake and Josh. You also get to see this guy who acted along side Ben Affleck and Josh Hartnett in Pearl Harbour, this blonde girl who acted in Air Bud Spikes Back, this red-head who acted in Sky High, and the little kids are absolutely adorable. So yes, and after which we went to Natasha's house, but for a short while before Xiang had go off and i got a ride to the bus-stop from her dad. So that basically sums up Friday.

Today, i had to wake up early, yes, early on a Saturday morning, no thanks to the oral session we have with Ms Puja. BUT seriously, my oral really sucks. This is the reason why i never got an A* for my PSLE, plus having braces on makes it worse, you can't pronounce your sss, and a lot of saliva gets spit out [i pity the examiner]. OH GOSH! I really need help with my oral. Oh yes, then i got a lift from Natasha's dad to Parkway to meet my mum, we basically walked around and bought stuff. And then we ate at Jack's Place BUT i splattered sauce over my white blouse, dang!

Oh and before i got to Parkway whilst waiting for my ride there, i went to the staff board, you know the one where they put pictures of all the teachers. I was looking at the Humanities Department and boom! It hit me, Ms Koh wasn't there, i really, really panicked. I have no idea if she has packed up and gone cause she refuses to say anything, plus it was too sudden and not to mention my fears of her not being in school on Monday were coming true.

Sigh, Life SUCKS.

But we have to go through it all the same. DANG IT!

Shucks, i think i shall retreat to my small corner and start being pathetic again.

xoxo Heather

I WANT COFFEE!!! COFFEEEE!!! COFFEEE!!!

I dont believe this, my mum had to ban me from drinking coffee of all things, i like coffee, i love coffee, gimme coffee. Shucks, im addicted to the brownish-like liquid that when mixed with stuff like chocolate is absolutely delectable... GOSH IM DYING!

Imagine being in a Cafe, but not being able to drink their ice-blended coffee, OH THE PAIN! OH THE HORROR! OH DOGGONE IT!

Sigh, was in Cafe Galilee with Shi Wei today, looked at the Ice-blended Mocha, Cappuccino, etc... i nearly died of practising self-control, I CANT BELIEVE I AGREED TO GO INTO A CAFE OF ALL PLACES! Of course, i kept a calm posture in front of Shi Wei, which is also the reason why i'm ranting about coffee in this entry.

THIS IS ADDICTION!

Ok, i admit, people ban me from drinking coffee is to prevent me from becoming SUPER HYPER instead of just my normal hyper, but still i cant stand this.

Oh, and can you imagine Ms Lim dancing, no offence meant though, but i can't. The whole idea is just.. too.. weird.

And my defintion of weird is more than just your average weird, cause i myself AM weird to begin with. Ok i think the butterscotch ice-cream i ate to curb my addiction to coffee is starting to take effect. The high sugar content is making me hyper, so no difference right?

Ok anyway gotta go eat something, quite hungry though i just ate... haha

xoxo Heather

When i was younger, i wondered why people would subject themselves to painful and torturous methods of suicide. I never could understand why people would even contemplate suicide when the world has so much to give to them. I saw those who cut their wrists in a bid to escape reality, weak-minded and foolish. I never gave death and its counterparts much thought, seeing as i had problems of my own, trivial but nevertheless important to me then.

As a child, i never experienced the despair and anguish death brought to others. My parents forbade me from accompanying them to attend funerals, so i never could visualise the scene of death. All i knew then, was that not a note of happiness could come out of it. As i grew older, the burdens of the world started piling on me. I could no longer ignore what i previously did not understand, pain, suffering. The more i knew, the less i understood, growing up wasn't what i thought it would be. I could no longer find a plausible outlet for my frustrations, or stress. I resorted to what i had previously saw to be under-handed to relieve the stress i was holding in.

Everytime i encountered a problem i could not confront face on, an incarnadine line would appear on my left wrist the next day. The people around me no longer able to ignore my utter foolishness decided to pull me out of the quicksand i was in. They sounded me out, asking questions that i, myself could not answer. I did not know how and why i was in such a miserable and pathetic state, all i knew then was that it was starting to become an addiction, an addiction i would not be able to get rid of easily.

Different people came and past but all with the same objective in mind, to help me. I thought it was ridiculous, why wouldn't they leave me alone? This unhealthy obsession was something i would get over quickly, i did not see the need for them to be worried. However, it started to grow on me. I was no longer as innocent-minded, my deep, dark thoughts were frightening to the extent i contemplated many things, most of which are unmentionables. My outlook in life changed, i saw things in a darker light and always thought that they was no light at the end of the tunnel for me. I kept wondering why, why people had to go through so many trials and tribulations to even continue on with life. Life to me was cruel, heartless and cold.

The events that took place in my life, this life i'm leading caused a noticeable change. Thankfully, some people, people of significant standing in my life has suppressed this darkness that is creeping out of me slowly. Under the influence of these people, i would think, why am i subjecting myself to such means, why do i do this to myself? People spend their whole lives pursuing things that mean nothing when they die. Why do they see themselves as holding the weight of the world when there are many who are in a worser plight, facing death, sickness and poverty everyday.

Things come and go and depression is just a passing phase in our lives. People experience at it one point or another, but bear my words in mind, just don't let it take charge.

Ok, i'm done.

Sorry for making it so long, try to enjoy reading it though

xoxo Heather

Came across quite a few things today and yesterday like for example the longest palindrome i have ever seen [ http://www.palindromelist.com/longest.htm ] and Hannah's blog, and being the person i am never knew she transferred to TKGS. Oh came across some one's email address, and now i'm hoping the person won't block me and also came across the fact in the newspaper that the stupid pop-up add for Winfixer is a dud, thank God i didn't install it.

Right.. so far my day's been pretty ok. Started out in the morning dishevelled-looking+grumpy+swollen-eyed and went to breakfast. Ate frosted cornflakes which i flicked all over the floor, my little brother scolded me for it though, ironically enough. Drank a mixture of hot water and powdered chicken flavouring, and thought it was pretty nice though it was gross in my little brother's opinion.

After which i sat in my small, tiny computer chair and started staring at the computer screen, like i did yesterday.

xoxo Heather

Never try to fathom how people like Samantha thinks. Just read her blog and i'm having a terrible headache. Can someone please ask the girl to use simpler words like red instead of incarnadine But i have to say, i did learn quite a few words from her, some extremely bombastic words i doubt even the English teachers would understand, where does this girl get her stuff anyway? Headache, headache, headache.

Now i'm risking my neck for some one else, i'm hoping the person won' t tell on me. If HE does, i won't say a word ever again to him again.

Anyway, just did something which i think is quite brave of me. Still can't believe it though. ok anyway, gtg, my mum's gonna come in and drag me out soon, and she's still fuming. xoxo Heather

I just realised Samantha likes reading sadistic stuff, whilst talking to her, she quoted this quote: 'Currently, man cadge one another. pusillanimous, hellacious, rapscillion behaviour yar. hellbent on revenge for the slightest thing. all around people feel rancour for their kind, thoroughgoing hatred for one another. people use rhetoric, facades, panegyric, equivocal eloquy to "charm" others to get their own way. such egregious behaviour leads to a decline in morality. and especially vituperative and vitriolic language, ribald and risqué humour is not uncommon either. skelms involved in constant spoliation. sporadic outbreaks of war.' I nearly died when i saw it, i was counting the number of words i didn't know that was in that quote itself, after which i spent my time searching the dictionary and this is what i found, or at least half of it:

Pusillanimous: cowardly

Rancour: hatred or resenment

Rhetoric: impressive language

Panegyric: a speech/text of praise

Egregious: outstandingly bad

I didn't bother searching the rest of the words, I'll stick to memorising the meanings of these few words first. I'm not afraid to admit i don't know many words, though i wish Xiang and Natasha would stop using the word 'obfuscate', cause firstly, i already knw what it means, secondly, they're using it wrongly, i'm not trying to confuse them until my words are beyond their fathoming.

Anyway, so far my day's kinda boring, so much for the holidays, the only thing i like is being able to sleep in. Other than that i just filed away my papers [hoo-ray for the teachers, they've been bugging me to do tt], and i spoke to a few ppl while on msn while drinking Ice-blended Oreo+Coffee bubble tea, it was delectable though it gave me quite a stomachache after that due to its dairy-rich content. Sigh, im getting allergic to lactose which is bad, because i love cheese and anything rich in dairy content...

So yes, my day's been pretty boring beside the occassional aimless and crappy conversations i have with my friends.

xoxo Heather

Paris Hilton can't sing, heard her song, title's Screwed i think. Oh gosh, it's kinda bad. Her voice goes up and down, up and down that sort of thing. Anyway I'm listening to A Dream Is A Wish Your Heart Makes by the Disney Channel Circle Of Stars, it's so cool. All of them can sing, from Alyson Michalka [1/2 of Aly and AJ] and Ricky Ullman both of whom are from Phil of The Future, right down to Dylan and Cole Sprouse from the Suite Life of Zack and Cody.

Just watched Smallville, the episode was Prodigal i think, haha, Clark got a job at The Talon, and Lana's his boss... anyway, i was suppose to have French lessons today but it was cancelled last minute. My ang moh teacher ain't teaching me anymore, now it's somebody else.

Oh, Aayla from American Idol got kicked out, quite disappointing actually, i think she's got a lot of potential. But the pressure's on her, i mean why wouldn't it be, she's the senator's daughter or something like tt.

Anyway, I'm gonna go back to watching The League Of Extraordinary Men, ok, i forgot what i wanted to write, sigh... tell you another time, haha, xoxo Heather

I am glad the hols are here, even if IT IS one week. Anyway, what can i say, i had a pretty eventful week full of ups and plenty of downs. On Monday, i was being quite grouchy, most probably the Monday blues. During Add. Math Lecture i was making fun and criticising the NIE teacher who btw was so nervous his hand trembled and his lines were all squiggly. HELLO! we're only students, kids, teens, whatever way you want to put it, we won't eat you up! Can someone please tell him that he is never going to pass like that.

Then, on Tuesday, i had my Chemistry and Physics test, so far i got 13/15 for Physics which is really good, cause i have never gotten that high for Physics before. As for Chemistry, i'm not quite sure yet as Mr Tan plainly refused to give us back our paper due to the fact that many CCA leaders were missing from our class. Anyway, after i had the test, i went for Badminton. A first since the starting of this year. It was amazingly short because Band interrupted our practice session by making a helluva noise in the hall.

Wednesday was relatively short and not much happened except i had Taekwando which was so much fun as i was allowed to kick targets but on Thursday, the CCA leaders had to go for the Sec 2 Cohort Camp, i sat beside Cheryl Tang, and was relatively quiet as compared to when i was sitting beside Lynette, who craps a lot. And if I 'm not wrong, i was feeling kinda down that day, for reasons i shall not tell because it's kinda stupid.

Friday was the worst amongst all the days. My stupid Chinese teacher was PMSing and it so happened that i was her punching bag. She asked me to read out my mistakes in my compo in front of the whole class and wrote it down BIG on the whiteboard. I started to cry, perhaps cause i was annoyed enough as it was. After which i got back to my table, I was so frustrated i couldn't find my pencil i started making quite a fair bit of noise with my stuff, she then flared up and shouted, asking me why i was throwing a temper. She asked if standing in front was embarrassing, OF COURSE IT WAS, YOU STUPID WOMAN. Then she asked Xiang, and Xiang told her a bit and in an attempt to defend her stand she told Xiang off and said 'WO BU FU QI. NI DENG YI XIA GEI WO LING WAI YI GE DA AN', that woman is mad i tell you, M-A-D. Luckily for me, most of my friends were with me on this one because she scolded people for no obvious reason.

She just broke the records in my files for being the meanest teacher yet. Otherwise i love all my other teachers, and i don't mind doing work for them. AND if i were to do Chinese HW, it would be for myself and not tt idiot of a teacher.

And ya, there's this moronic girl whos name shall remain undisclosed, who gives me this look of disdain upon meeting me when i have nothing to offend her guts, really... WHAT'S HER PROBLEM!

Ok, i think that is about it, haha, xoxo Heather

Ok, firstly, i just spent my day sitting on the couch watching 3 movies which were wickedly cool. First i watched this HK movie where there was so much killing and you would be wondering how many buckets can all tt blood shed fill. And then i watched Final Fantasy VII, never been a sucker for this sorta movies, but i have to say, the movie was just A-W-E-S-O-M-E, the graphics were top-notch, and the storyline though a little complicated was brilliant. Took a short lunch break before resuming with my movie marathon. After which watched an extremely cool anime movie Ah! My Goddess. I thought it was good and i loved the storyline, and it just goes to show [you must watch the movie to understand this] the heart remembers more than the brain... a quote taken from Smallville by Chloe Sullivan after Clark Kent has amnesia but still loves Lana Lang, awww...

And then, i moped around before watching another movie, this time more medievel sort of setting, and if i'm not wrong the title name was Dungeons and Dragons 2, and i have to say, even though it seemed like a low-budget film, it ain't half bad. And then, we decided to stop after all our brains were spinning with complicated storylines and all that hullaboo. We turned to Channel 5 and watched a light-hearted movie about some guy by the name of Pluto Nash.

Anyway, check out the TK school webbie and click on Pillars of TK, after which, take an extremely close look at the pictures they put up.

xoxo Heather

• Am pondering how to break the bad news to my mum
• Am pondering what to say
• Am pondering when my Mum's coming home
• Am pondering why Ms Koh lost her phone
• Am pondering if i should ever be nicer to the guys
• Am pondering when Smallville season 5's gonna air

• Was pondering if Ms Koh was ever gonna reply my message [ But now i know ]
• Was pondering when Ms Lim's gonna come online [ Now she's online ]
• Was pondering [earlier in sch] why Mrs Yeo wanted to see me
• Was pondering why i had a sudden interest in Josh Groban's type of music
• Was pondering who's the genius Yi'en who scored like really high for the exams
• Was pondering when was Lana and Clark gonna kiss and make-up [ In the process of watching Smallville ]

Anyway today was fairly interesting... seeing as nearly half of the class faded into oblivion... nah, they all went for the CCA Leaders' Camp, but the teachers didn't really go through new lessons, they just made us do some questions, tts all. During Geog Elect, me, Cheryl Tan, Cheryl Tang and Selena talked about the boys in our class. Ok, and i admit... the NCC boys ARE cute, sorta anyway. Before that i had Add. Math and Ms Wang intentionally sat near me to disturb me and forced me to work under pressure...her idea of making me get rid of my nerves. Plus the one time i freaked, she smacked me on the arm, sigh, why are teachers always smacking me?After school, i went to see Mrs Yeo as mentioned, was a fairly short meeting as she just wanted to talk to me about something.

After that, i walked around for a while and went to the back to see if Ms Koh's car was there, i needed to ask her something you see so i was hoping she wasn't going for the camp you see. When i got to the staffroom the second time around, she was there but she had this serious look on her face and she was talking on the phone, so i decided not to disturb her and waited for her to come out. After which, she talked to several NCC [land] boys before me and Xiang actually managed to catch her before she entered the Staff Room. Ok and then we talked, and expectedly had some awkward moments in which neither party knew what to say, but it was nice talking to her even though the subject wasn't exactly anyone's definition of 'ideal'.

Anyway i got a fabulous 26/30 for my compo, haha. I should keep my ego in check, remind me...

Oh i also visited Ms Lim yesterday, seemingly decided after i barely talked for the earlier part of yesterday and Xiang Yu and Co decided that trip to Ms Lim's house would indefinitely cheer me up, how right they were. Met her adorable 'mutt' Mumbles, and he seemed relatively small even though in his pictures he seemed larger than life. We spent the most part in Ms Lim's house chatting and basically talking about school and all. It was really nice to hear frm her again, and, as i'm writing this, i'm under the impression that i'll be under close scrutiny from a certain someone who snoops around blogs.

Anyway, Carrie Underwood just performed 'Jesus Take The Wheel' on American Idol and David, my favourite, dimpled, boyish, good-looking crooner, got kicked out, darn it. Sigh, i'm not sure if today's a good or bad day.

xoxo Heather